She's without...

I can't fathom life without.
More and more, I feel that's my only option. I know I can, I know I'd survive.
But I don't WANT to. I don't know what that would look like and I don't WANT to know.
This is all I've wanted since before I was allowed to want it.

.....I feel so stupid & young & naive. I don't want anyone's pity.