Gratitude

Taking a page from the Goddess of Daytime Talk Shows, Oprah Winfrey... I'm gonna be gay and list the things I'm grateful for. Apparently, it's supposed to really cheer you up, no matter how big or small the list items are. So, here goes:


1) I am most grateful for my future husband. He is the absolute best person I have ever known in my life and he gives me much more than I can ever really thank him for. I have never met anyone with whom I relate so well and I doubt I ever will. I love him more than anyone or anything else in the world.

2) I am grateful for music and dance. They have always been part of my life and I may not be the BEST at either, but I have enough natural talent and enough passion that they are huge parts of my life that bring me a lot of joy and I know I can bring others joy through them.

3) I am grateful for my home. I am finally in a place where I am comfortable and I adore that I have a home that I can share with my favourite. I am enjoying the little comforts of having a home, like access to internet and cable and laundry and being able to cook and being warm.

4) I am grateful for my job. I love the kids. They make me happy and I like knowing that I add something of substance to their lives as well. And I am, currently, making enough money that I haven't had to WORRY about covering my expenses in a long time. That security means a lot to me.

5) I am grateful for my friends. I don't see them often, we aren't as close as we once were, but every time I see or interact with them, they make me happy and they remind me why I chose them in the first place.

6) I am grateful for my favourite's friends -- my new friends. They are also great people and I actually can't explain how happy it makes me to know that he has people he has known for so long whom he can depend on. They love him and care for him and would give anything for him and he for them. And they genuinely are people I am beginning to love and care for as my own, and that means a lot. I wouldn't want awkwardness or tension between important people in either of our lives.

7) I am grateful for my family. I gained so much of who I am from them. I don't often think of them first in terms of the people who mean the most to me, and I don't feel guilty about that. But, I still know they are amazing people and I owe a lot to them. They allow me to be myself and they support me in any way they can. They themselves are wonderful people and I don't feel any reservation regarding them, whatsoever.

8) I am grateful to know what's wrong with me. Knowing what I'm dealing with and what I have to do to fix myself is the biggest relief I've felt in a long time. Having an undiagnosed illness was terrifying. I haven't been able to actually start healing yet and I know it will be a long, difficult journey, but I don't feel completely lost or helpless anymore. And I don't resent myself or feel weak/lazy/stupid anymore because I know a lot of the things that were causing that are outside of my control.

I know there is more, but I already feel better. Wow, Oprah. Who knew that bitch actually knew what she was talking about...?